my day was acutally pretty lame. andy called me at 9:05 just to wake me up. what a dork. oh well. i love him. then i actually talked to chad. he's a pretty cool guy. i like him. then i decided to get ready for the day. and i did a little bit of shopping. i went to ross first. i got three shirts. then i wandered around the mall for a bit. the only two stores i bought anything from was forever21 and ross. and i only bought tops. how lame? i couldn't find any cute skirts or pants or anything. sucky-poo. then i came home.. took a nap. went back to the mall. then went to the bowling alley. i ate some chicken strips and had a milkshake. . AH! WHICH I DIDNT EVEN GET CHARGED FOR!! i just realized that. SWEET DEAL! hahahaha. that's awesome. anyways. yaa. roni called. we chated. she's like " i'm gonna get wasted. i'll call you so you can hear me slurr. " i'm like. hahahaha. okay roni :) she's a dork. but she's totally rad. i love her. THENNN.. i came home. oh jeez. then andy calls right? and he's like.. i text messaged you, and for the first time in your life, you didn't text me back. and i was like.. um. ya... about that. and he was like. "well. i was gonna come pick you up and bring you back to quilcene to watch some movies with me, chad, and phillip and stay the night, but since you didn't text back or anything, we left." i was sooooo ticked! becauseeee. i wanted to see andy. oh well though. i couldn't have anyways. lindsay was coming over and spending the night, and i have to work in the morning anyways. but he said we'd be back in silverdale by 6:30 ANYWAYS, but still. i wasn't about to wake up at 5-5:30. but ya. anywayssss. so that's pretty much my day. pretty lame, i know. oh well. i got some new clothes. shweet.

___________________ANOTHER THOUGHT 10;19

 i saw andy. i went to meet up with my dad at the bowling alley, to see my hottie tyler. :D ha. and i was hanging out with my dad for a while, then andy called and said he was coming, so i waited for him, and then they came and ate. they meaning, andy, chad, phillip and kyle. they're cool kids. i like them. then lindsay came. we all hung out. andy gave me and lindsay a ride home. then these guys told MY guys to stay and play ping pong. haha. sooo. they did. for like. 20 minutes. andd. lindsay and i met them down there. hung out for like. 5 minutes. then andy, chad, philip and kyle left. ha. they had to wake up early. earlier than lindsay and i for work tomorrow. haha. we're dorks. anywaysysysys. that's all for now. ha. i'm a dork. no reason for this entry. no one even reads this anymore. but whatever.

 and just in case you were wondering.. you're like a sunset to me. you're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day.

i totally saw my cousin sharon today. it was pretty rad. we met up in poulsbo. wow. there is NOTHING to do there. i mean, the 3rd of july is fun there, but on any other given day.. it's lame there. we wandered around for a bit.. then aunt carole wanted to check out the antique shops, so we did that for a bit. andddd we had lunch/breakfast. brunch. that's the word. haah. they were all making fun of me because i only had ONE pancake and ONE egg. i didnt' even eat the egg. haha. then they were making fun of my gangsta` friend. haha. L-unit they called her. sharon was like ` make fun of her. add " izzle " to the end of everything she says` i laughed. somehow that lead into pig latin. haha. my name in pig latin apparently would be ikaylamay. hahaha. rettypay oolcay uhhay? (( pretty cool huh? )) HAHA! IM A LOSERRRRR!

 sooo. i met roni at work at 2:50. we then went to the mall. ha. for like.. an hour. she got stuff at bath and body works and a CD from sam goody.. and i got a jacket from forever21. i was gonna buy pants at aeropostale, buuuuut, i didnt want to try them on. plus i'm going shopping tomorrow. that's when i'll try on those pants. haha. i'll wind up buying them. i know i will. haha. anywayyssss.

 then we head back to work, and i clock on at 4. and i was on the whole floor for FOREVERRR!! i got killer tips though :) 13 bucks in 4 hours. doesn't sound like a lot.. buttttt. that's a lot for a busser. haha. i bet you anything she told tyler i think he's like.. the hottest thing alive. and if she did that, i'm TOTALLY telling michael she thinks he's hot. shoooot. at least i can TALK to tyler.. i can at least pour him COFFEE! she can't even go to the COUNTER if michael is around. hahaha. she makes me laugh. she was like " i really want to tell him, he would totally ask you out " and i was like " welllll. that's just too bad huh? " uGh. he's a hottie. fo sho. he's jewish. and he's CONVINCED my name is jewish. he says it all jewish and everything. haha. it's funny. but ya. anyways. ummmm. i'm exhausted.. and it's rediculously hot. and. i just don't feel like typing out my day. err. well. too late huh? i guess i already did.

 " the best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more.  that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. that's what you've given to me, that's what i hope to give to you forever. " <3 The Notebook <3

*i haven't posted in forever. and a lot of things have changed. *

 summer has been pretty good i guess. i was hanging out with lindsay bakkum, josh parsons and taylor lovestrom every day, but now we NEVER hang out. it's kind of weird.

i got a job. i work at the bowling alley in silverdale. i'm a busser in the resturant. it's pretty cool i guess. i like working. i just hate working the mornings, like.. 8-2 on saturday and sunday. not exactly a fan of THOSE hours. but other than that. i like it. and i like almost everyone i work with. roni is my favorite. hands down. i absolutely adore her. haha. she's histarical.

i hung out with andy sunday and monday. we went to chad's lakehouse on sunday, then we left, i came home for a few hours, then he picked me back up, we went back to chad's lakehouse, stayed the night there, left in the morning, went to quilcene, then to port townsend (sp?) then back to quil, then he took me home. and in the meantime, andy and i held hands and cuddled sunday night.  those two days were completely mind boggling. not weird, or anything.. just mind boggling. that after 2 years, this is where we are at. and it was crazy because for a year and a half, that's all i wanted. i just wanted to be in andy's arms, and to hold his hand. nothing lusty, like making out or kissing, or like. you know, stuff like that. just hold his hand, or be in his arms, and after two years.. i FINALLY got that. it was crazy. cool, but crazy. we established a lot. ha. well. not really. i've just finally learned to believe him. he's not lying when he says that he loves me, or that he's not lying when he says i'm his bestfriend. for god's sake.. he introduces me to people that way " this is my bestfriend mikayla " i mean. he cares a lot about me, and i know it now. i just don't know why it took me 2 years to realize it. i dont think he knows how much he means to me. oh gosh. and now i think i'm falling for him all over again. and i can't quite decide if that's a good or bad thing. he's my bestfriend. i love him to death.

 wow. i miss xanga. i'll try to keep posting. i really will.

 wow.. what's happened in like.. a month? i saw andy. but i definitely don't remember what happened. i know he came to the pool with his friend chad. haha. qo mikayla.

 i went to freshman. i went with a ton of people. jerika's qroup. haha. i quess it was okay. i didn't have much fun... at all. and i looked TERRIBLE. i wanted to cry i looked to bad. i should have.. it's not like my makeup could have gotten ruined or anythinq. i didn't have a date, but i danced with nick twice. he's one of my favorites. most def.

 the last day of school is tomorrow. the last day of school, freshman year.. and junior hiqh. it came so fast. it feels like just yesterday we were all sevies. with our stupid little crushes that lasted a week. even the ones that have lasted through all three years. with the stupid drama.. over just about anything. granted.. there's still a lot of drama.. but at least almost HALF the stuff it worth it. i remember being a sevie and thinking that i would NEVER be a freshman. didn't even cross my mind that someday i would be. and now.. it's the end of our freshman year. i almost want to cry. with the painful realization that our junior hiqh years are OVER... its like.. i've just been punched in the stomach.

 i guess that throughout junior high, you learn that the things you think will matter forever dont.. and the things you think don't matter.. always will.

 i don't wanna grow up...

sooo.. what`s happened in like.. 2 weeks?

 i didn`t make cheer... aqain. but oh well. honestly.. this time.. i don`t really care. now i just know that cheer is definitely NOT for me. no matter what anyone says. i`m done with makinq an idiot of myself and tryinq out.

 i qet to see andy today. i saw him two weeks aqo and i`ve been missinq him like CRAZY. so i`m definately excited about seeinq him today. actually.. i`m not excited quiet yet, but later today i will be.

 so yesterday i went to jessica`s lake house. it was cool. we jumped in the lake like.. 50 million times and it was absolutely freezinq. i wouldn`t have been the LEAST bit surprised if ice hunq from my nose. it was freeeeeeezinq. but it was a nice day. then we left this morninq because it was CRAAPPP weather.. cool.  i`m supposed to qo to PT with her and her mom and her moms boyfriend mike.. but i don`t think it`s qonna work out.  ahh.. oh well. :\

 anyways.. that`s about all for now.. 13 days until school is OUT FOR THE SUMMER!!

 freshman is next weekend and it looks like i definately WONT have a date. and i`m not qoinq with any of the qroups i wanted to qo with. it looks like i`ve qot to qo with jessica piqott.

 anyways. i`m out.